i am afraid

This winter Doug decided that getting some sleds to go to the cabin is most likely for the best. So now there are snowmobiles parked outside, and way more winter gear inside (some -100 boots), but frankly I’m just a bit afraid of sledding. I think its a bit dangerous, and I’m right. It is dangerous. but it doesn’t seem to bother anyone but me. maybe ill be brave and go for a ride, its hard to say for sure i want to go to the cabin and try out snowshoeing… for that i would be required to ride the snowmobile in the cold cold cold to the cabin. Which others have done before and will do again just fine, possibly even with some enjoyment.I think i will weigh my options. do some pretty intense decision making. you know make a pros and cons list. try to be brave.wish me luck  

home

so every one is gone away for the winter, leaving a few brave souls uphere all alone to suffer through the winter. i cant say as i blame any of them, since i have my ticket booked o go home next weekend, and if i could stay there until april, then come back i would. but i cant. to to to bad. im so excited to go home and see everyone, to be fed by mom, play crib with grandpa, listen to lisa, catch up with my sisters. home is such a good feeling. i love to be there. especialy in the fall with all the changing colors, and the cool fall prarie winds. fall is so full of life, which might sound backwards to some, but the changes going on and the busyness of the season just dont say winter to me.
im happy to be going home.

oh what a cool cool summer

i am lucky enough to work at the airport. which means that even though i work long shifts, theres usually enough going on that the time goes by quickly, partially because in the down time that i do have i get to read everybodys blogs. it is so fun to find out what everyone is up to, or rather what they were up to before the summer. i guess everyone is to busy enjoying the few short months of beautiful summer that we do have to be bothered with blogging.
which is fine by me because so soon its going to be august, then inevitably september which in my books is well into fall and way over with summer. yikes. funny how every single year those months sneak up on me, i do my best to pay atention, but i get so caught up in the excitment of may june and july that BAM august hits like a.. well up here it hits like a bad storm, seriously it rained the wole month last year.
so here i am on july 27th looking back at what an awesome time i was. the ashby house was full, eveyone was back from school. such a good time. thanks guys. i think you should really not wimp out and stay for the winter….. its twice as fun as summer. seriously

MikeYankee. NovemberEchoWhiskey. PapaOscarSierraTango.

so i dont know how long its been since i wrote anything, but since i hope that not many people read this i trust that no one is terribly distraught over the fact. anyways i just thought that i would really like to wright a few things out.   

right now im at the beggining of a two week training course for my new job at canadian north. it is so intense, and justifiabliy so. im going to be the person who puts people on planes, and talks to pilots on the radio. thats so grown up and professional of me i think. this may actually be my first “real job”. i have benifits, a company issued life insurance policy, i pay in to a pension plan (one that i will be able to collect when i need to …….cpp i think not). but i think the most official thing i get to do is talk in Romeo. Alpha. Delta. India. Oscar. radio  language. which although is very official, the fact that i was absolutly extatic to get to learn to use it maybe tells me that even though i have a real buisness casual job, im not exactly as behind  as i felt before in terms of how my job reflected the maturity, or maybe even the status level of my twenty year old self. its so cliche – your job saying who/what you are, but it does hold some truth if you let it. weird, i always couldnt believe it when people would waste theyre breath saying that when only a sereotypical photocopy of a real person would actulaly have issues with that. there you have it . photocopy.    

i dont know how the begining turned into the end of this blog. so off topic from where i started, i guess this is just a place to wright my rambling thought, so i believe that there will be tons of future tanjents. cause the rhyme and reason to my thoughts even i cant follow  sometimes.

darla           

.Yikes.

this is my first post ever, im a little bit nervous. what if no one like what i have to say or maybe im to boring, or talk about i dont know what….. i dont know what i think thats my main concern with the whole blog thing. i dont know what ill end up wrighting about. thats what took me so long to start one, fear of having nothing intresting to talk about. thats why im not planning on telling anyone that this is here.

anyways i had a job interview this week to work at one of the airlines here in town,  job interviews make me so nervous. i even knew the guy that was giving me the interview, but i was still shaking when he was asking me questions, seriously shaking. i even have fairly decent people skills, i get nervous talking to some new people, but not someone that i know. i believe it has to do with the fact that your being judged.   your genral apearance, the answers you give to superficial questions, how good you are at lying about haw awesome you are. judged on everything except what actually maters and who you are. it is just the worst situation sitting there trying to pull answers out of… the air to all the silly questions your being asked while trying not to show how bad you have to pee because your so nervous. I hate job interviews.

im suposed to get a phone call wether i get the job or not, i reall hope that i get it, it should be good. plus they have health benifits and i have some cavities that really need to be taken care of. so there it is, my first blog full of usless information. i hope if youve read this far you enjoyed it.